Interesting yet stressful

AHHH… Wednesday!  This week has been interesting and stressful. 

First I must say that I have the most amazing husband!  Yes, this deployment is a constant reminder that he is the PERFECT person for me.  He sent me a cookie bouquet for Valentines Day (funny because he KNOWS I am trying to get in shape, made evident by my request and receipt of Thermogenics!), he also trusts me with HUGE decisions and we can’t wait for R&R (LESS THAN 50 days!).  Every month that he has been gone has resulted in a small token of love, from flowers to Edible Arrangements, Crown stuff (I am a princess) and the COOKIES!  He is supportive in whatever way he possible can from his location. 

Diva has been, well SUPER Diva lately.  She just knows everything, can do anything and feels NO need to listen to anyone.  She refuses to try in school, fails all spelling pretests then gets home the same night and knows how to spell every word.  I am at a total loss with her most days.  LAST night was Wii night… I LOVE Wii dancing so we did 6 songs together and then I did the Super Sweat 3 songs by myself after she went to bed.  FUN  and very needed.

Tonight I am taking his mom to see a place we want.  We have not been really looking for a new home and planned to wait until the end of deployment for this BUT it just happened out of the blue.  BD and I believe that things happen for a reason and we just ride the wave and pray.  Nothing in our relationship has been easy but that has made us stronger and brought us together so I believe that this next step will be no different.  BUT doing things without him on this deployment has been BIZARRE!

Tomorrow will start my workout countdown to R&R!

MAJOR Decisions!

As a milspouse we make big decisions all the time by ourselves with little to no input from our spouse.  I have decided on apartments, colors, decorating... things for Diva.  Then come the REALLY big decisions!  Recently I sold BD's car and we started the house hunting process (OK, not WE but I did) for when he comes home.  We LOVE the area we live in and Diva loves her school and her friends.  While I have never been totally sold on staying in California, for now it's where we will be.    I could not imagine taking Diva from her Grammy here (because the state my family lives in is not a realistic possiblity) and I could not imagine leaving MY grandma!  So California is home. 
With that being said... homes here are SOOOOO expensive that it's always seemed unattainable.  Recently it's seemed a little less so but with him gone I just don't know about making the decision on our first home alone.  AHHHH

What to do... what to doo.......

Happy Hallmark Holiday!

Valentines Day was one of my favorite days of the year until I hit high school… and then I was simply not the girl that got flowers or those silly singing candy grams.  They choir or runners would come into the classrooms each period all day each year and pass these stupid things out and I would NEVER get one so I gave up.  Then it became one of my most loathed holidays… nothing could ever live up to the ideals in my head. 

That was until Valentines Day 2007!  Bid Daddy and I had been living together for a few months so I knew the proposal was around the corner but had always told him that a Valentines proposal was LAME and CLICHÉ.  The weeks leading up to Valentines day included some nice lunches at places I was sure he would propose… nothing.  So on Valentines Day we went out and I was just excited for an adult night with him… all dressed up in a suit (with a pink shirt!).  After dinner we drove around and then stopped by the restaurant we went to on our first date… after some giggling (A LOT of annoyance on my part since it was cold and I had to work the next day) he proposed.  I cried and hugged and cried. 

4 years ago he put that rock ring, on my finger and it’s been an adventure ever since! 

This was my good morning message from him -

I love you so much, and aside from wishing you Happy Valentines Day, and Happy Engagement Anniversary, I want to say thank you. Thank you for taking that chance with me 4 years ago today.
Thank you for bringing Diva into my life. Thank you for creating the family I have always wanted. Thank you for supporting me in my life, and especially this deployment. You are truly an angel sent from heaven. Thank you baby. I hope you have a good rest of your day.
I love you
Yep - I am a lucky woman!

I took little miss priss to donuts this morning so she got to open her necklace from daddy… she loved it and wanted it put on her neck right away.  Lets PRAY it comes home with her as well.  So tonight will be a Wii date and a little Fro Yo, perfection if my love can’t be here.  He did open his gifts from us today (a 14.5lb flat rate box) and seemed to be VERY happy with its contents including 1 tank top covered in my perfume!

Parent's Night Out

Last night Diva's school had a parents night out.... for Valentines Day.  Well... since there is just one of me and the idea of sitting at a restaurant alone does NOTHING for me I decided to make it functional.  I went and got our taxes done and then to my favorite spa for a massage. 
NO ONE has touched my skin in MONTHS so it was a weird feeling.  It took me a few minutes to relax but BOY I needed it... mostly evident by the lady repeating "Wow, you are tense" and "There are a lot of knots, are you stressed?"  I just giggled and laid there.  Am I stressed?  HAHA, my husband is in a warzone, my kid is being devil more than angel and I have 7 weeks to get my house in some sense of complete military order.... YEP STRESS!

Today Diva and I have a few fun things, but first thing... we sold BD car!  A very sweet little boy bought it and I know he will take complete care of it.  We also have a skype date with daddy and then we are giving Valentines treats to shelter animals.... if you remember the last time we did this we came home with a dog.  Big Daddy, who incidentally is not so big anymore!, reminded me NO MORE ANIMALS!  Yes, dear.

Have a great Saturday all!

Random 5 questions...

Since there is no Milspouse Friday Fill In - I went and found 5 random questions to answer so here ya go!

1. What ticks you off?
Liars!  IF there is one thing that will send me OVER THE MOON with anger its being lied to.  I don't forgive it and I don't forget it.

2. What in your life has been an inspiration?
My biggest inspiration has been those around me that have fought to make it.  I am a fighter and am inspired by others just like me.

3. Who do you admire the most?
I admire my husband for his determination to get in shape... and for the way he loves me just the way I am.

4. What do you consider weird?
Ventriloquists!  They are just freaky and weird... there is somethng off about an adult with their hand in a puppet talking to themselves!

5. Whats one weird fact about you that youd like to share with people?
I learned how to wiggle my ears in high school... it's a funny parlor trick.  OOH I am SUPER pigeon toed on my left side, my mom fixed it when I was younger but when I am tired it turns in and I trip.

Deployment goals- Half way follow up!

When BD left for deployment I came up with a list of things I wanted to accomplish when he left.

1-       Go back to school

2-       Learn Jiu Jitsu

3-       Get back in 2006 (when we first met) shape

4-       Finish decorating and organizing the house

5-       Start writing my book – to be completed upon his return

Then Diva made her goals

1-       Learn to tie her shoes

2-       Learn to ride her bike

3-       Be able to read a book TO her daddy

AS the past year have gone on my goals have changed as I realize I am only human.  I apparently thought there were more than 24 hours in a day.  In addition while he has been gone I won a pageant so I added those responsibilities as well.  I have loved being able to spend more time with Diva and have used the goals to help monitor and ‘check’ myself during this time.  We are not on the back end of the deployment… about 5 months or so left.  Here is where I stand.

1-       Never made it back to school… but I will next semester.  It was too much with Diva and her schedule.

2-       Jiu Jitsu is next as I started kickboxing in October

3-       I will never be 115lbs again, I have resigned to that BUT I am working on getting more fit

4-       The house is ALMOST done – I am currently on the hunt for 2 black framed mirrors

5-       My book is at about 25000 words so a good start!

Diva update

1-       No progress in shoe tying BUT she can put her hair into a ponytail now I call that a win

2-       She has started to learn.  Doing great at it

3-       We are STILL working but making GREAT progress

What are your goals for deployment??? 

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