Doesn’t that sound heavenly?Since April I have not seen much of that word.I have not been able to pee in peace, shower without interruption or read a book until after bed time.Yesterday I asked Diva for 5 minutes to use the restroom and change my clothes for our meeting.About 14 seconds after I sat down came a little knock at the door.“Mommy?”, in a small voice.“Yes Diva… in my annoyed mommy tone.“Are you ok?” I asked.“Ummm… well yeah” she said.“Ok, then go read a book for a few moments, I will be right out” (Side note- I have extreme stage fright so by now my bladder was ready to explode!).“But mommy… ummmm…. Well… I was wondering….”.Anticipating the next comment I slipped in “No, you can not have a snack”.She sighs and says, “Oh well… I just wanted a kiss, can I come in”.SERIOUSLY child… I just want to PEE!I just want 5 minutes to pee, wash my hands and change my slacks… I am not asking for an hour of quiet movie time, I mean really the world would stop turning if that happened.
I have decided when BD gets home for R&R I am going to give him a full daddy day with her… 1 day to get a small glipse into my deployment life.A day that he has to run her all over creation to do her extracurriculars, a day that he has her knocking on the door ever 3 seconds wanting something without patience… oh yes, and on that day.I am going for solitude and hitting a spa alone.No talking, no nothing.
I love being a mommy and I love being an Army wife but good grief… sometimes all I want is to be ME.