What if's?

Today is one damn day closer to R&R; yep don’t give a rip about homecoming at this point.  That date seems like FOREVER until it's here... I mean good grief I would rather look a few weeks than a few months.  So, for now, my life REVOLVES around R&R.  I have my list before he gets home: a maid the week before he gets home (I know that may sounds snooty BUT a maid is paid to get down and dirty and do a WAY better job cleaning that I do),  the carpets professionally cleaned, the office organized and possibly a massage or two to calm my UN-ZEN butt down.  I am so nervous about R&R…

I have talked to a girlfriend who had hers a few months ago and I don’t feel so off base but here we go.  So, my husband and I have an amazing relationship… this deployment has made it so.  Any issues we had before we have had to deal with and move forward.  I love how we are NOW.  That being said I am scared to death for R&R!  What if we are weird together, what if we don’t connect in the bedroom… what if things are just OFF the whole time he is home, or he and Diva clash.  Yep… scared to death.  I have been told that my fear is normal and that everything will be ok but ‘what if’s’cloud my thinking.  I hate worrying as I feel like that screws me out of the wonderful anticipation of this.  I am dying for my airport moment, he school moment and all the time we get together.  I hope that my fears go away not intensify…

What was your biggest R&R fear?